knp ngan aku ny?

last night i had a dream,,i had a dream that her was hate me at all,,,,i dont know lorh,,i love both of them,,at the same time.i cant forget my memory with her,,we sharing 2gether at the long time,,almost two years,,but we r clash cause the small matter..so idiot,,i dont know y at this time i cant accept her anymore..i know he very frust with my decision,,yesterday i have send a text with her besfren,,,he say"gnbr kow tiap ary dy ciom,ciap nges ag"..just the almighty know how my feeling at that time,,i dont know how to repay her goodnes,,he give me everything,,but i?just make her frust,,,i know i have make a wrong decision..help me to make a right decision with my situation now,,,